No words to express the grief.
Coz I exactly know how it feels to go to that dark place of despair, helplessness, and hopelessness.
Everyone writing, suicide is real, depression is real. We are here for you.....For once SHUT THE FUCK UP.
How many of you have really been with people who go through shit, go through real suicidal thoughts, how many of you have in passing lightly made use of the word depression coz you didn't get the right flavor of your dessert. How many of you have said, oh she/he still behaves like a victim, not picked up calls, not met the friend when she needs you, have victim-blamed. Gossiped about one's grief, bitched about one's tragedies. Avoided their WhatsApp messages. Judged them mercilessly. Asked them to vaguely move on, to stop overreacting.
Now only coz it is trending news, stop lip-synching and look at people around you, start there. It starts with empathy.
If anyone is going through suicidal thoughts. Kindly contact a psychological counselor. It's ok to feel what you feel. You are not weak, you are not alone.
I was there. I went to a therapist. I am doing good now.
Keep a journal, write your thoughts, take a bath or a walk, move away from that particular room you are in, count the sheep in your mind, stop listening to patho songs, stay away from people who don't understand you or mock your pain, every hurt is real. Don't compare your life to anyone. Pet stray dogs in your area, adopt a cat, leave a relationship which is a drag, friendships where you aren't appreciated. Relatives who are jealous, I stopped watching the news too. IT IS NOT EASY I know. If it's worse, count your breathing. One breath at a time.
There is hope. Even if it's the tiniest one. But there is.
When I was in that dark moment myself, I almost killed myself. Then I heard a whisper - Not like this Jael for all the struggles you have gone through. This isn't the right way. Also, my girl, you haven't seen northern lights.
I had hope. I had a dream. I lived and I live like a queen now.
Lots of love for everyone who read it understood it, and those who cried. I know.
Hugs
~Survivor.
( When my therapist told me along with depression I have PTSD and few more. I was like how can one petite body hold so much. I should be special then. I still remember her smile. )
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